Wishful thinking?

I want to surprise my dad on Friday by showing up at the farm. Mom’s out of town this week at a librarian conference, so he’s out there all alone. And, I know he would be super proud of his shut-in daughter if she went outside all the way to his place. I can’t bring myself to mention it to him because I don’t want to break his heart just in case it doesn’t happen. This agoraphobic mess hates saying she’s sorry. I want to see his garden, which is supposed to be WAY larger than last years. I want to be at peace sitting on his porch in the swing. I want away from this hell, even if it’s just for a few hours.

I could visit with the cows...
I could visit with the cows…
I could go fishin' with the old fart...
I could go fishin’ with the old fart…
An I could see if his garden is TRULY bigger than it was last year (this is last year).
An I could see if his garden is TRULY bigger than it was last year (this is last year).

We’ll have to wait and see. Making plans usually makes it worse, so I’ll just wait and see and try not to psych myself out of it…AGAIN.

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